Men of Impact is a ministry that came from my own personal testimony where I was miraculously transformed! God showed me that I went through all of this to have the heart and to know the ways to lead men into victory through impacting their lives. This is my story……

Growing up and through my adult years I went through some very difficult times and dealt with a lot of issues that were in my life that I didn’t know why they were there or how they got there and if something may have caused them to be there or not? As a kid our family moved a lot. We moved due to the economy and job situations and my parents not agreeing on where to live and there was always division growing up between my parents and decisions needing to be made on our lives. There were times that my father would be living in another city for work while the rest of us stayed in a different city where we had our family. During this time I was the oldest of 5 and my 3 younger siblings were just born and very young. With the emotional ups and downs along with financially my sister and I did one year in public high school then we decided we would do correspondence high school and help out around the house. For me personally this was out of necessity and my heart to help my family. The emotional toll and focusing on others instead of normal teenager stuff and just my development and so forth seemed to really be a negative thing in my life personally. Going through puberty and a lot of changes and questions and uncertainties in life and not having anyone there to focus on me and develop, guide, or pour into me was very difficult. But as life goes you do your best with what you have and to this day I am thankful I was there for my younger siblings and my family. Looking back also I know that my family was doing what they thought was best also. So not to talk badly about my parents at all this is just part of the picture that I want to paint to people about dysfunctional families and things that are out of order and how God can help and restore that- I believe all families are like this to some degree! My father was in a city where he could make money and support us and my mother wanted to not move again and be in a city where we had family and stability. So both doing what they thought was best and for us to function.

There was a lot of turmoil, anger, sadness, aloneness, and confusion just to name a few things that I was going through as a kid. But you do your best and I felt Gods leading to help the family. Unknowingly I allowed a lot of emotional and spiritual problems happen through all that turmoil. Angry, bitter, stress, jealousy of other teens, rejection, very shy, etc. Now my walk with God was strong but I went through some very hard emotions and circumstances and I really believe that through those times that I grew in God and my prayer life and growing in Him by trusting Him through those difficult times. I went to Christ For The Nations after that and had a really wonderful time on my own up there where I got my own independence but after I graduated I went through my early twenties and most of my twenties dealing with severe depression, anxiety, moral failure, and a lot of other spiritual problems like anger, emotionally distraught, rejection, and so forth. It was like I woke up a different person one day After 3 years or so I went to the doctors and that’s when I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I was told the two major causes of those were #1 stress, and #2 genetics. There are many generational sins/issues within both sides of my family tree, just like all families have, and depression and anxiety is one of them in my family tree. So I have struggled with that most of my twenties. Now you have to know that I was in college after Christ for the Nations for about 4-5 years and with attending many, many classes I had only finished about 1-2 classes, where I should have finished 24-30 classes! Anything that I put my hands to and started with excellence I rarely finished and if I did it wasn’t near the level that I started on. Including I always waited for the ‘one’ and when I was 22 I was friends with a girl for 2 years then we dated and got engaged!! Talk about waiting a long time! The first date, the first kiss, the first dance, the first everything. But I wanted to be with my first love. Anyways that failed miserably right after we got engaged! Not sure why but it just did. Part of it was the emotional issues I dealt with and struggles with like rejection, anger, and so forth. So I was bitter and very angry that I had these things in my life that were negatively affecting me and they were mostly caused from my childhood. And it was also bitter sweet cause I was able to help my family whom I love so much. But again it was something promising; something I poured my heart into, and then the end product was again failure. I felt at the end of my rope often and with every new hope of something then the emotional and devastating rollercoaster ride of the ups and downs when that new opportunity failed in the end. You can imagine how new opportunities or opened doors or hope looked to me as time went by. This led to despair and occasional suicidal tendencies.

So I moved to Dallas and I figured that in the last 5 years that not only did I not build upon anything but instead fell backwards in all areas of my life that I would move to Dallas and just concentrate on school. So that in 2 years I could hate at least attained my degree. I had a lot of people including my parents fully agree with me and how good it would be for me. I got to Dallas and all seemed well, I registered for 4 classes at the university there and I was out looking for a job. Well very shortly while I an there, I am very sick with pneumonia, right after that my back went out and I was on the floor weeping from the pain for 10 days, I could not find a job, I got very behind in my assignments. My depression, anxiety, and panic attacks worsened a lot. I was inoperable most of my days there. I felt a lot of demonic activity in my apartment. I was up at night with a knife really sensing strongly that someone would break in and try to kill me. I left Colorado and came to Dallas after being at the lowest level of my life for years. Being at the end of my rope and now knowing I could go any lower but while in Dallas I was at the lowest level. I did not know it could get any worse but I experienced worse! I moved to Dallas to concentrate and to focus on obtaining one of my goals and little did K know that move turned into isolation, it turned into distancing me from my family, my friends, my church, all of my authorities and protection. After a few long months of this I simply wrote my parents a letter explaining some of this and that I have gone through this stuff enough and that I needed them to help me get out of this. They were so supportive and helpful! We prayed about me coming back to Colorado to work on me for awhile. I was hesitant on moving back because again school was paid for and I would have to quit again, I would be embarrassed with all my friends in Colorado, etc. So I told my parents to make the call for me and they said it was very clear to come back and to work on me. So I agreed and my dad and brothers drove out, helped pack me, and drove all the way back to Colorado. It was so amazing and loving to have a family help like that! Little did I know this would be the week that God would begin the transformation in my life that would change my life like never before!

The same week that I had returned one of our pastors had a deliverance ministry that I went to. The pastor came over and prayed for me and instantly spoke to what I was going through and the second he touched on those areas I begin to cry uncontrollably. I will tell you exactly what he said. He said, ‘I speak to all your pain, hurt, and rejection from your childhood and how it was hindering me all my life and especially now. He said Satan attached spirits of rejection, fear, depression, etc in my life as a young child so it would hinder me from the purpose God has called me to be in the pastoral and family ministry and to raise a family with a new Godly linage- breaking the chains of bondages that we inherit from up to our 4th generation. He spoke healing and freedom over these areas. He said God loves me and made me repeat is 3 times. He said God is very tender hearted towards me. He said, “Bro, I don’t know exactly what and I don’t need to know but God is going to do something in your life this week that you have needed all your life. He told me there was a satanic assignment for me death and that I had just seen it recently because of what the Lord was going to use me for in the ministry. He told me all the pains, hurts, on going problems that was hindering my purpose and Gods will in my life would be healed and restored. This was a Saturday morning so Saturday went by and Sunday went by and was coming to an end so I told my parents Sunday night that I had not felt any different- because the pastor said this week something was going to happen. Well they laughed and said that he had meant next week!  I was so, so relieved, once again I thought that I had missed out. So Monday morning came, February 23rd, and let me tell you that God started to just break and make things I was struggling with just vanish!!! They left and it was life they were never there to start with! Thoughts, stuff I struggled with, strongholds and so forth just disappeared. I felt so freed so alive! I felt my brain breathing and refreshment there that I have never felt before in my life! I felt my blood circulating in my body and my body operating life never before. God not only healed the depression but he also gave me such a joy that I have never experienced before. God just didn’t heal the rejection but also gave me such an overwhelming send of love for myself, I could feel , I could experience how much God loved me, I could now understand why so many people told me growing up what a great and special guy I was. I was overwhelmed and so grateful and ecstatic what a great guy God allowed me to become. I was so happy that I looked the way I did; I was so happy that I was me!  God healed the anxiety and panic attacks. Instead of avoiding certain problems or hard things in life I embraced them and turned those butterflies into confidence and whatever I have done so far I have completed even stronger! God healed the suicidal tendencies and not only healed but has really given me an outlook of a life giving attitude, and again how much he loves me and how much I love myself.

All the pains and hurts from my childhood that I was living out everyday, that I so vividly remembered and was still affecting me greatly, He healed those and me able to forgive and forget. He has turned those into an anointed, powerful, strong, testimony to help others. Then just the week after since I had been home my dad had us all go to lunch with a man who started Biblical concepts in Counseling- this ministry is so effective that there is literally a 5 year waiting list to be counseled by this man! God put it on this mans heart to get me into the BCC as quickly as possible and within a week a spot opened up and I was able to meet with one of the counselors. This ministry, BCC, do a spiritual cleansing of deep roots of different areas. Some of these areas are bitterness, pride, rebellion, moral failure and so forth. They resolve emotional and spiritual problems. They also through biblical application and prayer disconnect the emotional pain from the memory. I went through this for their normal session and well God used that in such a mighty way! It cleaned me up from all the emotional pain and hurt from the past and even things you didn’t know you had it identified then walked me through the process of resolving those. At that time I told my men’s pastor about all that was happening and he asked me to share it in our 5am no thrills bible study and I did and it touched all of the men dearly and this is when I started to realize after talking to them all and my father and brothers and friends that they were experiencing most if not all of the same issues and just like me before could in no way share it with others. Please read the 5 things that I shared with this men’s group that God told me to share along with my testimony. This is what God would want to share with you from my testimony and experience.

Click here to read the 5 things God revealed to me to share to others from my testimony.